ready, go.
Christ defeated death and by that raised us to new life in 3 days. now i'm PRAYING He'll do a fantastic work in me in that amount of time. i lost my focus on Him and i've allowed my heart to harbor unforgiveness and even.... jealousy. just in typing that word, jealousy, i can feel every ounce of pride in twist and turn.. but ultimately i suppose it's true, as ashamed as i am to admit it. it's gotten to the point that this.. sickness has grown out of me..
"out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks"
-- Matthew 12:34
and started affecting some of the people i care about most..
"love prospers when fault is forgiven but dwelling on it seperates close friends"
-- Proverbs 17:9
and it's gotta change
.. so start the 3 days.
within the first 20 minutes that these 3 days started He grabbed me and reminded me of His peace and control over my life, and i won't lie, i may have already felt broken but He broke me more. i've grown distant from Him recently.. totally my own fault, but goodness i'd missed Him.. and His reassurance. There's a light at the end of this, and not just for me... praise God.
i feel so foolish for so many things. it's all about priorities when it comes down to it. i've made idols of good things, and forgotten about so many things more important.
this is by no means a polished post, it's cluttered, but my thoughts are pretty cluttered right now too. i feel like God's cleaning house within my mind and my heart (at least i hope He is)... but of course, before cleaning and house, you have to drag all the dusty and cluttered junk into the middle of the room so you can resort it. this is me right now, i guess.
as debbie-downers as this whole post has sounded, i am still so overwhelmed with the reality that God is GOOD. i've posted about it before but it still baffles me that God does not portray goodness like anything else in the universe, but is Himself Good.
He's got it totally covered, my only job is remembering and listening for His guidance.
So here's one of the verses for the next 3 days, cause as much as i've said i'm for the Lord, i haven't acted like it recently....
"commit your actions to the Lord and your plans will succeed.."
-- Proverbs 16:3
DAY 1
